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They say you will know when you meet "the one."

Oh! He's what they're talking about.

They say marriage is work.
A few weeks ago Brian comes to me as his bags are sitting by the door for a TDY and says "We need to talk."
Great, that's what they're talking about.

They say all the pain, throwing up, stretch marks, and labor will be worth it.
Yes, that's what they're talking about.

They say sometimes bad things happen to good people.

LUBBOCK, TX-A 9 year-old girl who was tragically shot in a hunting accident will be laid to rest Tuesday. Almost 500 people are expected to attend a private funeral for Soren Dahlstrom. The Hockley County Sheriff's department says more details have surfaced in the tragic accident. Chief Deputy Paul Scarborough says the grandfather was hunting for rabbits right outside of the truck
door and the window was down. That's when Soren popped her head out of the window and into the line of fire. Three other kids were in the truck at the time."

PIEDMONT, OK-
"Family members joined emergency responders Wednesday in the search for Ryan Hamil, a 3 year old boy missing after a tornado demolished his home, killed his brother, and injured his mother and sister. They were all apparently trying to seek shelter in a bathtup when the twister hit Tuesday. Ryan's 15 month old brother, Cole, died in the hospital. The mother Catherine, 36 and five months pregnant was listed in fair condition awaiting surgery to repair a broken hip on Wednesday. Her 5 year old dauther, Cathleen, was hospitalized with tramatic head injuries and listed in critical condition. Catherine's husband Hank Hamil operates a custom harvesting business and was not at home when the tornado hit. Piedmont Mayor Valerie Thomerson said searchers listened over night for any signs of a child in distress. "

This must be what they're talking about.

They say it's ok to be angry with God.
Job 7:11
"Therefore I will not keep silent; I will speak out in the anguish of my spirit, I will complain in the bitterness of my soul."
Psalm 22:1
"My God, my God, why have you forsaken me? Why are you so far from saving me, so far from my cries of anguish?"

This is what I'm talking about.

Y'all I have been so heartbroken over the last few days. First the sad story out of Lubbock, then the unimaginable story from a few towns away. I have been so mad at God I don't even know what to pray. I start to pray for the little babies, then I think "No, you shouldn't have let this happen to them Lord." I start to pray for the mother, then I think "No Lord, you should have heard her cries."
What good can come of this? One mother trying to save four precious lives and her children are ripped right out of her arms. She did everything she could, but as a mother in her situation would you not spend the rest of your life thinking of a million things you could have done different? The part that scares me the most is that if God can take away her babies, He can take away mine. For all the smack I talked while pregnant, Chase has absolutely become the center of my universe (you don't like that Lord you shouldn't have made him so cute. just saying.)

I find in times like these I have become so comfortable in my little air conditioned earth bubble surrounded by my family and friends that I forget this world is not our home. In times like these I remember that this world is temporary and filled with pain beyond our reasoning. In times like these all I can do is surrender my own understanding and worship a God whose love is beyond all reason, even if we're not on speaking terms right now.

Revelation 21:4
"He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away."

Hebrews 13:8
"Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever."