Since my 21st birthday I've had trouble remembering exactly how old I really am. After 21 there's 30 to look forward too? I'd rather not keep count. I had this theory in high school about age that went something like this....
16. You drive
18. You vote and go to college
21. You can drink (not that I am much of a drinker) and you're still in college
21+. you get a job, get married, have kids then you die.
Pretty depressing and definitely from the mind of a teenager but it goes to show how much I hate change that I couldn't see past 21. Yes God was laughing when he made me an Air Force wife.
He was also laughing when someone thought I was 27 the other day. I calmly said "close enough, sir" while inside I'm screaming I'M 25!!!!!! Yikes two whole years? It didn't help that two days prior I swear I had a wrinkle on my forehead that wouldn't go away allllll day. My first permanent wrinkle? Well let's just get it over with and blame Chase and start looking for those gray hairs.....
So let's get serious here. We are getting older. I have a few beautiful, gorgeous, amazing friends who all are completely different but are still lovely in my eyes who have been talking about Botox - You know who you are!!!
Can I be honest and say this breaks my heart? Because if they aren't pretty enough what does that say about me? If I get Botox what will be next, a face lift? Do I want my (future) little girl to grow up thinking God didn't make her pretty enough? OK I won't get started on my soap box of media/fashion murdering girl's self-esteem. But I will say that I have been struggling with holding myself to God's standard of beauty and not this world's.
Proverbs 16:31 "Gray hair is a crown of splendor, it is attained in the way of righteousness"
In today's world who wants that? Well I do. Ok I say that now but I may be kicking myself in thirty years when my boobs are almost to my belly button. And if any of you who know who you are do decide to get Botox I will still love you and think you are beautiful, especially on the inside!
First of all you don't look 27. I totally asked for Botox for my next Birthday and I darn well better get it ha ha. After our 3rd kid (if there is one). I want a boob job and lift, tummy tuck, veneers, lasik. I don't care if I look like a fake bimbo. I just don't want to look like a fake OLD bimbo :)
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